Thursday, April 29, 2010

Good day

Today is a good day.

I took my final block of exams as a second year student (and passed with flying colors), which makes me officially half a doctor and done with full-time classroom education forever. It's a beautiful day, we're grilling out tonight and I drove home with the windows open and Neil Diamond blaring.

Good times never seemed so good. :-)

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Oooooooklahoma

For those who know me personally, I'm pretty obviously ensconced in the more liberal end of the political spectrum. (For those who don't know me personally, you probably figured that out if you read the whole health care debacle post a while back.) And from that stance and from my position as a woman and a future physician, I was incredibly sad today to learn of the legislation passed by the Oklahoma state senate which blatantly infringes upon individual freedoms represented by a woman's right to choose.

I'll preface this by saying that while I am definitively pro-choice, I am not in any way pro-abortion. I understand the point of view of my colleagues who believe that there should be laws protecting those who cannot protect themselves--and I don't believe that anyone, really, would willingly end an unborn life without first going through an incredibly difficult and painful decision. But while I don't necessarily believe that I personally would choose abortion, I have always believed that it is vital that in a free country women have a right to choose what to do with their bodies. If we tell a woman that she is not allowed to seek an abortion (or even to consider the option), we are in essence removing a piece of her personhood. We are telling that woman that the government knows better than she does about what is good for her, her family, and any theoretical future child she may bear. We are taking away her freedoms.

What the Oklahoma law says is that now in order to have an abortion in the state, a woman must have an ultrasound of her fetus. Not only that, but the doctor or technician performing the ultrasound must turn the screen so that the woman can see it, and must describe for the woman (presumably whether or not she wishes to know) the fetus's body parts and organs in detail. The object of this procedure, obviously, is the idea that if a woman learns this information she will be less likely to choose abortion. What it amounts to, essentially, is the government stepping in to coerce upon a vulnerable person at a difficult time a decision that conservative leadership finds appealing, rather than truly allowing a person to make a decision based on what is best for them (or, perhaps, even their baby). I doubt Republican senators in Oklahoma consider the fact that when a 16 year old mother of three who lives in an abusive household chooses to have an abortion, she might actually be considering that it would be better for a child to simply not be born into that world where it could not be cared for and protected. But I digress.

The part of this bill that I personally find the most appalling is a clause wherein doctors are protected from malpractice suits if they choose not to disclose birth defects to a mother with the intent of dissuading her from having an abortion. In essence, here's what that means. Let's say I'm pregnant (I'm not, by the way. Didn't want to freak anyway out or anything.). Let's say that my husband and I have decided that if the baby has a debilitating genetic defect (for example, trisomy 18--a terrible disorder that usually kills in utero, but for those babies who make it to term generally kills within a few hours or days) we will choose to abort. Let's say that I inform my obstetrician that I'd like to have prenatal testing done with the intent of discovering if the child has trisomy 18. We have the test, which comes back positive for trisomy 18. Now let's say that my obstetrician is vehemently pro-life, and chooses not to disclose to us the results of the test because she believes that we should not have an abortion. In almost every state, this kind of non-disclosure is considered a violation of patients' rights, and my husband and I would be able to sue for malpractice. In Oklahoma, we would now have no recourse to sue the physician for failing to disclose the information as a result of her pro-life stance. This, to me, is unconscionable. I may not agree with every decision my future patients make--in fact, I will probably disagree with many of them, including the decision of patients to smoke, drink, do drugs, have unprotected sex, eat Burger King for every meal and gain 500 pounds just to name a few. But I am in no way allowed to restrict those patients' access to information about their health simply because I do not agree with their decisions about what to do with their bodies.

I truly hope that the law gets overturned, and that those who are pro-life realize that they cannot dictate morality to the masses. In fact, when they do so, they destroy a little bit of the fabric that makes us truly American--our freedom to make our own choices, even if others (especially governments) disagree. Unfortunately, I don't see that happening any time soon.

In closing, I'll leave you with one of my most favorite quotes of all time:

American isn't easy. American is advanced citizenship--you gotta want it bad. It's gonna say, "You want free speech? Let's see you acknowledge a man whose words make your blood boil, who's standing center stage and advocating at the top of his lungs that which you would spend a lifetime opposing at the top of yours. You want to claim this land as the land of the free? Then the symbol of your country can't just be a flag; the symbol also has to be one of its citizens exercising his right to burn that flag in protest. Show me that, defend that, celebrate that in your classrooms. Then, you can stand up and sing about the "land of the free".
--Andrew Shepherd in The American President

Saturday, April 24, 2010

I feel like I haven't written much for the past couple/few months, but in all honesty, it's because there just hasn't been that much to say. Basically life has consisted of class as usual, some relaxing with family and friends and D when I can manage it, and just general about-the-house kind of things. We did have a great time last weekend at the annual med school "Cadaver Ball"--D and I went with my friend F and her boyfriend and had a raucous good time with all our classmates (as well as the other 3 classes). It's nice to just let loose every once in a while (and in fact, I plan on doing so again the day after I take the boards).

The only other really exciting thing is that Thursday was my last official day of classroom learning. Ever. From here out, we have a week of studying, a pharmacology and psychiatry final, and then I'll be studying for Step 1 for about 4 1/2 weeks. Then 3 1/2 weeks vacation, and then boom--ob/gyn. While the idea of being in the hospital looking much like a deer in the headlights is admittedly a bit terrifying, I'm also really, really excited. I loved being in clinic last summer for the month opportunity that I had, and really, it's just so much more fun to learn in a "doing" environment, rather than sitting on your butt on a couch or desk chair day in and day out.

Speaking of sitting (or not), I've also been working on a program called Couch to 5K ever since D and I got back from Europe. You can check it out at www.c25k.com. Basically it's a program that's designed to help people who have never run seriously to get into a regular exercise routine. It starts out with almost no running at all and gradually increases the amount that you run and decreases the amount that you walk, until 9 weeks later you are running about 3 miles (or 5K). I'm currently getting ready to start week 7, although I'll admit that I cheated a bit and started on week 3 because I had been working out at least a bit going in. Thus far it's been a really good program, although the only problem I have (that I've always had with running) is the fact that I just plain get bored. After a few minutes, my brain needs something to occupy me. Even Goljan's Pathology lectures aren't enough. I'm thinking once the boards are over and I've had my fill of path and all else medical, I might load a Harry Potter book onto my iPod and see if that makes life a little easier.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Shocking Revelation

I just realized that I have 2 weeks of classroom study left, a week of exam study, and then a month of boards study and then HOLY SHIT I HAVE TO TAKE THE BOARDS AND WORK IN A HOSPITAL AND PRETEND TO BE A REAL DOCTOR WHO KNOWS SOMETHING. (Well...I don't really have to pretend to be a real doctor...the short white coat makes it painfully obvious that we are all peons with no real power or responsibility other than waking up at O-dark thirty and poking annoyed patients' bellies. But still. WHOA.)

Three months from right now I will be on my Ob/Gyn rotation. How in the world did that happen?

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Heartbroken

Oh, Butler.

Gordon Hayward--the hero that almost was.

Why must you break my heart?

Stupid Duke. Now there's nothing to be excited about except a Tuesday full of school.

Friday, April 2, 2010

Spring Break and Other Happenings

So. Healthcare Reform. Fun Stuff. I wanted to leave that last post at the top of the page for a bit just to see if anyone else out there had thoughts or comments, but I think a couple of weeks is enough time to admit that we've all kind of moved on a bit, and things seem to be settling down politically anyway so I guess that's my cue to give it up already. :-)

Let's see...not a ton of stuff going on lately so just some general updating...D and I spent spring break a couple of weeks ago in Austria, which was awesome. I had studied there for a summer in college, and he had never been, so we had a thoroughly enjoyable (if a little chilly) vacation. Since then, life has been pretty much back to normal, if not a little better than usual since we came back not only refreshed but to the arrival of spring. I don't think it's been below 55 degrees since we got back, and that's enough to raise anyone's spirits, really.

I took my first NBME assessment test today, which basically is a shortened practice version of the Board exam coming up in June, designed for us to gauge what we know already vs. what we need to study prior to actually hunkering down in our bunkers for the month of May. I actually did pretty well--above a passing level on my predicted score, so that's nice. I definitely need to study the daylights out of neurology and physiology--but to be fair, those subjects were covered last year and who really remembers anything from a year ago? Everything else seems to be pretty good to go, at least for a starting point. Now I just have to actually break down and read First Aid (the Bible of Board Review).

Also working on getting back into the gym and in shape this week because I didn't go at all over spring break, and then the week after we got back D gave me The Plague and I couldn't breathe for a week until I was rescued by the mighty Z-Pack. Good news: Now that I'm feeling all better I'm also feeling all motivated to get my butt moving again, especially given the nice weather.